Okay. Let me start out by saying that I am definitely trying to be more optimistic about my life and my situation. I am going to be strong and give my son and I the life we both deserve.
With that said...I feel stuck.
I found that Virgina College in Birmingham has a Diagnostic Medical Sonography (Ultra Sound Tech) program. Not many places have that, you usually have to go through radiology first. I was SO excited..thinking...yes! I'll be able to finish this in just over two years and then I'll be making BANK. I could easily provide for my son and I, and also have lots of money to save. Yesterday I went to meet with someone from the college and was instantly let down. Because the only option for the program I have is to go to school Mon-Thurs from 8-3. The problem with that is, I still need to work. So I'd have to work Fri-Sun. And honestly, I can't do that. I can not imagine being away from my son for that long. :( I got sad the second she told me that.
With that information, I've realized that my only option really is to go to school online. The problem there, is that I won't be able to do anything vocational. So it'll take longer to get a degree. And I don't wanna be doing hair for another 4 years!!! Not just because im losing my passion for it, but also because I don't make shit for money...to be supporting me and my son. And I don't wanna have to live with my parents for another 4 years!!!!!
I honestly don't know what to do. I don't know how I'm going to be able to give my son the life I SOO badly want to give him. And I have no idea what career I want to get in to to give that to him. Then, even once I do figure that out, I don't know how to go about achieving that, without having to stay at my parents house forever! I don't wanna rely on them so much. I want to support my child. I want him and I to be a family.
How do I possibly do that?
God, please help me find the solution so I can be the best mommy possible for my son. I want the world for him and I don't want him to see me struggle. Please help me find my way, help me choose what path I am meant to take.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
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