Amber

Some may know the long story of how I lost touch with my best friend of 10 years...some may not. So here is the short version.
March of 2008 she met a guy, started dating him and got pregnant almost right away. He was a complete asshole, beyond explanation and she tried leaving him a couple times. In July of 08 she tried leaving him the second time and I was the one who picked her up and brought her to my house. I would do anything for her...she's more than my friend, she's like my sister. I would have helped raise that baby...but she wanted to try and work things out with him...and when she went back he forbid her to talk to me. Well she had her baby in December, which I had to hear from the grapevine. The next time I heard from her was Nov of 2009. She was miserable and wanted to leave him but was scared. We talked for probably 20 min, but she had to call from a blocked number so he couldn't know she called me. That was the last time I heard from her until today...(yes that was the short version!)

I was at work and it was close to closing and was pretty slow. I had my phone near me...and when a number I didn't know called, i answered, which I never usually do. And it was her. I cried cuz I was so happy to hear her voice.
I'm not sure I could explain to anyone what Amber means to me. I have a lot of friends, yes. I care about a lot of people and have a lot of people that care about me. And I could honestly say that I have quite a few really good friends. But Amber has always been my "best" friend. We're complete opposites in some ways and utterly similar in others...but we've always been there for each other and we have this deep connection. When I didn't talk to her more than once over a year and a half span, people said that I should accept it...that people come and go from your life. But, I couldn't accept that. I feel like Amber and I are supposed to be in each others lives. I love her like she is my sister and I would still do anything in power for her. And I hope to God that she has the strength to stay away from the father of her baby. Because she deserves every happiness and a great guy...and he is definitely not it.

I am so happy that she called, so happy that I can now just pick up the phone at anytime and call her or text her. But its bittersweet, after almost two years of not seeing her, I'm STILL not able to, because I'm in Alabama! :(

I realize everything happens for a reason. And things will work out the way they are supposed to. But why, after so long without my best friend, do I have to continue to be without her? I wish I didn't have to be in Alabama. But, I need my family right now. I need my mom emotionally and physically when the baby is born. And I'm probably going to continue feeling that way, because I want my parents to be a intricate part of my son's life. But I also want to be with my friends and I want to be a part of Amber's life again. Why is it that I have to choose between friends and family? Why can't I have both!!?